Do You love me? How much?

The questions I asked God continued to yield responses that were highly tender and personal.



Day 6 - Do You love me? How much?



God said to me:

I love you Gaylene. 


Do you feel that overflow?
The bubbling up? 
It's me.
Flowing in you.
Flowing through you.
Flowing around you.
Flowing on top of you.
Flowing underneath you.
Flowing beside you.
Flowing.

And it's all love FOR you.

It's like a waterfall that never stops. Never ever.
Imagine Niagara Falls with no water.
Impossible.
Impossible for me to cease loving you the way I do.


Open up Gaylene for the overflow.
You are my reservoir, 
my catch basin, 
my pool at the bottom of the waterfall. 
Catching me.
Catching my love.

Fill Me Up by United Pursuit f/ Will Reagan

(Love of God overflow :: Permeate all my soul)

Next: Do You like me? Why do You like me?

How do You see me Father God?

As I read through Rivers of Eden, I continued to ask God questions and journalled what His replies were. 

Day 5 - How do You see me Father God?
Do I have the humility to agree with God? 
What if what He tells me is true? 


God told me:
Let me tell you about your garden. Yes it's fragrant and watered. But have you considered the varieties of flowers and plants that grow there? And the wildlife that find a home there? Colors that spring out of verdant greenery. 

And yes Gaylene, the smells. 
You are the fragrance. 
You smell so beautiful. 
No one else smells like you.
Your aroma is intoxicating. 
No one else has it.

My Sweet Rose - John William Waterhouse c.1908

When you walk in a room, people sense something is different because your aroma is so strong that it cancels out all the other stuff. It actually changes the chemistry. 




NOW do you understand why you are filled with the beauty of fragrance? 




Because you ARE a fragrance.

Alabaster Box by Julie Meyer

Next: Do You love me? How much?

Who am I to You?

The questions I asked God started to get a little more personal. 

Day 4 - Who am I to You?

As soon as I asked the question, I got a picture in my mind's eye of feet walking on a paper map. Then the map was revolved and the feet headed into an entirely different direction.

Then God spoke to me: 

You are an adventurer, a mapmaker.

You chart the way.

Others are on roads they think are leading them places.That's who you are Gaylene. You help people who have been given confusing directions make sense of them. 

That's your unique teaching gift. You use your experiences to chart the way. Continue to be totally transparent about your story, your discoveries, your breakthroughs, your walk...it charts the way for others.

You know they've been reading the map wrong.

I just gave you a picture of how when you look at the map one way and just alter the way you hold it, it can change everything.

It is important to me. You are a discoverer no less important than Christopher Columbus.

Next: How do you see me Father God?

Show me what You are like

Continuing to ask Father God questions and journalling His subsequent replies. 

Day 3 - Show me what You are like
(Bring to mind one object of symbol that represents You 
Why are You like that object or symbol?
How does it relate to me? 
If You are like that, what does that do for my heart and my faith journey?)

He replied: 
Open your Bible.

I am an open book, open wide for you.

Every word, every punctuation mark, every symbol, every sentence, every verse, every chapter, every book represents a facet of Me.

I am open to you. Open to your interpretation based on your experiences.

I am the Word.
In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God and the Word was God. He was with God in the beginning. (John 1:1-2)

This is why I want you to consume My Word, because I am the Word.

Tell me...what You are like?

Continuing with my journey with God by asking Him 40 questions in 40 days and journalling His subsequent replies. 

Day 2 - Tell me what You are like?

I am like the waves on the shore. 

You notice all my different waves Gaylene. You love body surfing in my big burly waves. You love watching the way I gain territory. The way I leave heart shaped rocks scattered on the shore for you. The way I sometimes lap softly at the shore. The way I can change colours. The way I sound. 

Why is it that you love the lakefront, oceanfront so much? Because you want to hear me, see me, know me. Be awed by me.

Waves of grace. Waves of love. Waves of my perfect purposes. Waves of mercy. Waves to woo you. 

You love to swim in me. Bob in me. Dance in me. I bring you joy. You dive into me. You praise in me. 

That's what I'm like. 

WAVES.

Next: Day 3 - Show me what You are like.

Let it Flow :: 40 Days :: 40 Questions :: 40 Answers

So many people ask how I hear from God in the specific way I do. For me, at the core of it all is journalling. My journals are all dated and they give me a permanent record of what God tells me,my dreams and visions, prophetic words spoken about me, song lyrics that speak to me as well as notes and impressions I get from sermons, teachings and messages. I spend a lot of time combing through them in order to remind me.

Then I came upon Rivers From Eden, an excellent little book by Brad and Eden Jersak. It encourages you to ask the Lord 40 questions in 40 days and to journal what He has to say back to you. To say the book and my subsequent journalling changed my life is a vast understatement. So in the weeks to come I'm going to share some of the questions the book prompted me to ask Him and what the Lord spoke back to me. I asked all my questions in one bound red and black journal and I recorded what He replied between September 2011 and January 2012. What God spoke to me in that journal is precious to me in ways I cannot properly express in mere words. 

Day 1 - God who are you?

I am your everything. Your Alpha, Omega. I am your provider, your defender, your Only One. The only husband you will ever need (not that you won't have an earthly husband). I am your sustenance and your nourishment. I answer your hunger and thirst for me. I see you. I create you. I AM your good father, the one who sees it all. The one who loved you at your worst and still sees the precious little girl, still my perfect daughter. I am. I know. I love. I desire. I see. I hear. I sense. I feel. I show affection. I beckon and Gaylene, I beckon you. My precious daughter, you are mine. I am more. I am bigger. I am deeper. I am longer. I am mercy. I am grace. I am righteousness. I am everything I say I am and MORE. Don't put me in a box. Don't put limits on me. I am higher. I am stronger. I am wider. I am every race, every tribe, every tongue. I am. I touch. I sense. I hear. I hear. I see. I am everything. I created it. I tend to it. I see the future of it and in it all I see you Gaylene. You! Concerned, loving, nurturing, affectionate, cherishing you. I hear the way you call my name. Be mine. I purchased your soul at the price of My Son's blood. 

Next up: Day 2 - Tell me what You are like?

I shall be whiter than snow

As I survey the latest six inch layer of snow that has fallen in the past 24 hours, my heart is overflowing with a newly found love and awe for God and His creation. 

Why, you might ask?

During my most recent trip down to International House of Prayer in Kansas City, we drove through two fairly substantial snowstorms. And in the stark whiteness and expanse of the North Dakota prairie, God revealed the reality and beauty of Psalm 51:7 to me. 

http://bible.cc/psalms/51-7.htm

Now I look at the freshly fallen snow and I think of it as a tangible reminder to us - if we choose to receive it - that He really does cleanse us, wash us and make us new. 

Now go ahead...look out your window with eyes afresh. Don't you just adore Him?
♥

http://biblia.com/bible/esv/Job37.6-7