Friday, 30 August 2013

What in my community causes You grief?

Why not ask God about your community? Like me, you might be taken aback at what He has to say about the things you can do to affect change. It doesn't take much.

Day 22: What in my community causes You grief?
Why does it grieve You? How do You want me to respond? 
Shall I pray? Shall I speak out? Shall I act?

I wrote: I'm scared to ask this question for some reason.

God said: The same thing that drives you...marginalized people being left aside. Aboriginal people and their plight in your city and country. People who are precious to me being invisible.  Each of them are precious to me, Gaylene.
I said: How do you want me to respond? 

God replied: Look into their eyes. They want to be acknowledged like anyone. You don't need to give money but I do ask for you to acknowledge them with love. Of course you shall pray. You already do. Simple prayers I do not despise Gaylene. Act when the Spirit prompts. You know.

Next: What in my community brings You joy?

Sunday, 25 August 2013

What in my church brings You joy?

A couple years ago I asked God 40 questions over 40 days as prescribed in a book called "Rivers from Eden: 40 Days of Intimate Conversation with God" by Brad and Eden Jersak. In the process I learned so much about His heart for me, His people and, in this case, His church.

Day 21: What in my church brings You joy?
Why does it bring You joy?
What activities in our church are You blessing right now?
Are these ministries for which I should be praying?
To which I should be giving?
For which I should be serving?

God said: Well I'm enamored with SHOP. Single-minded devotion to me. It's like Brian says...nothing takes you off your game. Your game is to intercede for the plans and purposes I desire. I want more of this. More worship. More prayer. More intercession. The things you experience will be happening soon all day and all night.

It brings me joy because above all it's necessary. I need it to see my plans, my love, my Son coming forth. 

No program in itself will do this. Alpha is schooled you to be in this place. They all have ripple effects but they're not the real stories. The real story is people proclaiming the return of my Son Jesus Christ to rule the earth. From Jerusalem. About Israel. You see, these three must be the focus. SHOP is focused on it. 
Other churches are coming. Other denominations. I'm waking people up in droves. You in the middle of the night times a thousand. You will see this in the middle of the morning, afternoon, evening. I won't give up until others see this and come around.

Next: What in my community causes You grief?

Friday, 16 August 2013

What in my church causes You grief?

Apparently when you ask God about His church, His precious Bride, He has lot to say.

Day 20: What in my church causes You grief? Is there a stain on the bride's dress? (This question about the Bride of Christ is not for ammunition, but to repent.)

God said: None of the extra trappings matter. 

I just want my people to focus on Me. That's it. If they focus on me and not the room, not the outfits, not the things, not the stuff, nothing else will matter.

I don't care about the stuff, I care about you, My people fixed on Me. If everyone did...fixed on Me...they wouldn't have to develop programs, do things etc. They will because of me, not because of a church, a building or the trappings or a program. And if you bring 20, 40, 50, 100, 500, 1000, 5000 people focused on me together. Well you see what I'm getting at. You will do what is needed anyways. Because you will hear My voice. 

That despair in your heart about the spinning globe and the lights and the jumping and the gyrating is well founded. I wonder a lot about it.
I was aghast and asked God: Really? You're for real going to reveal this to me?

God answered: Yes Gaylene, you. Think to the simple country churches you've been to in St. Laurent and Victoria Beach. Do you think I care any less for those people because their buildings have less stuff? No. 

I want people with their eyes and their hearts focused on Me. I want more people like that. All the rest will follow.

I'm not looking for churches with programs and numbers and stuff. I'm looking for fully devoted believers of My Son Jesus Christ. That's it.

Next: What in my church brings You joy?

Thursday, 8 August 2013

Whose burdens do I carry?

Anyone who knows me has heard me say this: God never works on one level. His answer to this question was clear and yielded such extra illumination it was startling. And once again, everything made sense.

Day 19: Whose burdens do I carry?
Whose burden can I bring to You?
How do You see them and their burden?
What promises do You have for them?

God said: Your ex-husband.

My retort: How can I still be carrying this? How many years have I struggled? 

My Heavenly Daddy replied: Well you are and you know it. It's how you still beat yourself over your mistakes. Gaylene you were there at prayer, you know he's a wounded little boy. But he's my wounded little boy. I have salvation for him. Remember Israel..that's why I want you to remember. Remember his hunger; not in a mean way. This is why you pray for Jews the way you do...there is a connection to the hard heartedness. I have salvation for him, the one everyone thinks is Jewish. It's my promise Gaylene. You will see it.
I said: Do I want to?

God said: All those prayers Gaylene, of course you want to. Give the burden to me. I save souls. It's not yours to carry. You did not fail. You see, that's the burden. That when someone doesn't turn to me that you have failed. No you haven't. Take your ex-husband - the one you have prayed for the most - to the foot of the cross. Leave him there. Don't worry. Don't stop praying, but leave him here with me. I died for him too. His parents, his family. Leave them there with me. Trust me. Will you? 

Yes Lord. You're all I have, all I need.

God continued: Now let's talk about your disappointment with me in this. Are you ready to let it go Gaylene? Are you ready to see that I had it all worked out all along? 

Yes Lord. I'm sorry. I repent for holding it against You.
This is my promise to you: I HEAR YOUR PRAYERS but you need to understand my timing. It's absolute. I'm in control of it. I know when he will come. I knew the exact moment you would too. Lean into me and you will discover this more and more. Okay?

Yes Lord. I love you.

God finished: Let it go now Gaylene.
Next: What in my church causes You grief

Thursday, 1 August 2013

Name my burden and show me what it looks like to You.

On Day 18 of asking God 40 questions in 40 days, the task was to name my burden and then query Him. 

Show me what it looks like to You? 
What has it cost to carry this burden?
Do I believe any lies that prevent me from handing it over and be willing to make the trade?
What would You like to give me in exchange?
Invite Him to take my burden and receive His gift.

I wrote: my regret about how long it took me to get saved? It
looks like a weight in cartoons. 
But really my burden is loneliness or more specifically ALWAYS being alone and how much that hurts.

God said: Gaylene, my darling. You do listen. You do hear. Yes I used the ER and the last week to bring you here. I knew you'd get here. Now listen to me. You are not alone. You have angels assigned to you. You have people who love you and war for you and they will be made clear. I will not leave you in this place Gaylene. I am NOT punishing you. I deeply desire to speak to you in those places inside of you that feel so forlorn. 

I replied: I'm even afraid to see what THAT'S going to be like Lord.

Do I believe lies that are preventing me from handing over my burdens? What will you give me in exchange? Am I willing to make that exchange? 

God answered: The lie Gaylene is the same one that hinders you...that you can do it yourself. It actually ACCENTUATES your pain in this area. You need to come to me first always and those alone feelings and lonely times are not meant to feed negativity into your life. They are meant to edify you if you come to me first.
In exchange, I will give you peace and freedom at who you are, who you are becoming and total freedom from your past. It will no longer hold you in bondage...and the question is are you willing to make the trade? 

I said: Yes Lord. I don't know what it will look like but yes. I will.

Next: Whose burdens do I carry?