#WarOnGrumbling Day 33

I'm grateful that God loves to blow my mind.

Today was just Wow. Whoa. Holy crap. Whoopt. really? Really?! REALLY?!

I can't even try and put God in a box. He plays chess on a multi-leveled chessboard. He knows what He's doing always.

The thing is...He could just leave it that way. But somehow He also desires for me to be woven into His story line. And that in itself is reason for awe and wonder. 

I used to think that I could box you in //
But I’m laying down //
I want to know you, Lord //
I’m laying down all my religion //
I’m laying down //

#WarOnGrumbling #40DaysOfThanksgiving

#WarOnGrumbling Day 1

Deciding to choose gratitude over complaining is harder than it sounds. Right now, I'm in a difficult period of grief and intentionally choosing to war against grumbling has been so helpful in past years. So for the next 40 days at around midnight, I plan to review my previous 24 hours and find something to be thankful for.

Tonight, I'm thankful for changing seasons. I have always adored fall, but because I'm such a cottage fan, swimmer and beach sunset junkie, it's not as evident. However, in the wake of my father's death, this last summer was a bit muted than most. 

Because of this, I've intentionally taken note of every note, every iota of this autumn from the first falling leaf and the crisp night air to the entire new palette of colors, the harvest moon and the precious last nights I could sleep on my purple porch. 

It's a new season and not just outside my window. Things are different on the inside. I am fundamentally changed and frankly, it doesn't always feel swell. But because I know God's is with me and I see His work in my life, I am thankful.

Though the seasons change //

Your love remains

 #WarOnGrumbling #40DaysOfThanksgiving

Do You love me? How much?

The questions I asked God continued to yield responses that were highly tender and personal.



Day 6 - Do You love me? How much?



God said to me:

I love you Gaylene. 


Do you feel that overflow?
The bubbling up? 
It's me.
Flowing in you.
Flowing through you.
Flowing around you.
Flowing on top of you.
Flowing underneath you.
Flowing beside you.
Flowing.

And it's all love FOR you.

It's like a waterfall that never stops. Never ever.
Imagine Niagara Falls with no water.
Impossible.
Impossible for me to cease loving you the way I do.


Open up Gaylene for the overflow.
You are my reservoir, 
my catch basin, 
my pool at the bottom of the waterfall. 
Catching me.
Catching my love.

Fill Me Up by United Pursuit f/ Will Reagan

(Love of God overflow :: Permeate all my soul)

Next: Do You like me? Why do You like me?